Feeling nostalgic

am I nuts here?

maybe someone should slap me out of my delirium.

quite possibly. but still, i'm feeling pretty nostalgic these days for the old house. of course, i am sure it doesn't help that we are back there often getting it ready to sell. still, i do love the quiet of it. the smell of the woods. the beauty of it.

this place that was my longest home. ever. this place that shaped so much of who i am as a mother. so much of what i appreciate (or try to anyway ;). this place that shaped our family.

i try to stay grounded in the reality. not so much the romanticizing. i mean, goodness, at this point, we are beyond even fitting in there (and yes, these past days i have played out plenty of scenarios in my head - crazy girl that i am).

my best guess is that its that fall feeling to blame. fall was always pretty awesome there.

now, we just need to make fall pretty awesome here and now. i think i can do that. yes, i believe i can.

and will.

Venturing

Someone ventured outside the house today. Someone who has largely been in hiding since we moved months ago...someone was having fun hanging out while the little one painted in the loft.

It was a good day for kitty.

(and I think the newly three had some fun in there too ;)

Lately...

feeling far too rushed ...where is the time going?
trying to know that i can create my own speed.

Echoes

I saw a little boy in the water today.
Same skinny body.
Same blond hair.
He looked just like him from behind.

I saw a little girl at the water park today.
Same curly bond hair.
Same way of squatting on the ground.
She looked just like her from behind.

I saw a little girl walking through the woods today.
Same little sandals and sundress.
Same blond bobbed hair.
She looked just like her from behind.


Echoes

After those years go by. Visual echoes. Sometimes they take a while to come back...but they always do. In a flash; in an unexpected second; there they are.