Feeling nostalgic

am I nuts here?

maybe someone should slap me out of my delirium.

quite possibly. but still, i'm feeling pretty nostalgic these days for the old house. of course, i am sure it doesn't help that we are back there often getting it ready to sell. still, i do love the quiet of it. the smell of the woods. the beauty of it.

this place that was my longest home. ever. this place that shaped so much of who i am as a mother. so much of what i appreciate (or try to anyway ;). this place that shaped our family.

i try to stay grounded in the reality. not so much the romanticizing. i mean, goodness, at this point, we are beyond even fitting in there (and yes, these past days i have played out plenty of scenarios in my head - crazy girl that i am).

my best guess is that its that fall feeling to blame. fall was always pretty awesome there.

now, we just need to make fall pretty awesome here and now. i think i can do that. yes, i believe i can.

and will.